Yet to be deciphered

So I woke up today in an extra good mood. I think I’ll credit restarting blogging because that’s the only change that was made.

Writing does relieve stress so I’ve resolved to try to do it more as not to go insane.

I haven’t been on here in a min… this, or twitter… FB consumes my life… I need to update more but I don’t have a cpu right now… boo

I have a twitter account now and its actually quite fun…

So tell me if you have twitter so I can follow you! 🙂

So I’m here in blogging land… I’ve been so busy I haven’t had time to really write anything… plus the things I want to write about are so deep everytime I sit to write I get lost in my thoughts and end up saving the draft all over again… no lie I have like 3 drafts of blogs with plenty more sitting in my head waiting to come out… so I’ll be back once I get my thoughts together… I promise! Oh and I am reading your blogs 😉 I just also start to comment and get distracted and forget what I’m writing… yeah a mess I know…

So… I’ve told you all about Storm Stories with TheNorEaster

With alot of butterflies of the approaching day, the day has come for me to share my Storm Story… BUT you have to go to his site to read it because I encourage you all to read everyone’s story not just mine…

Mine is about Freedom

So friends I just ask for your prayers… I feel myself drifting back into a place I don’t like… and I know why… I just don’t want to admit it to myself… but in thinking back to the storm stories… I am coming to grips with the fact that its ok for me to feel this way so I’m not going to fight my feelings like I usually do cuz I think that’s what makes me feel worse… but I’m going to just pray and ask God that I feel his presence more in this time than ever before

… you see someone from a far and think its someone you know so you yell to them only to find when they get closer its not them………..

Yeah me too… only what’s worse is when the person doesn’t leave it @ a mistake and tries to continue the conversation…

So first it was a bad situation to begin with because I was walking in my neighborhood LOL… sad to say this always produces problems for me… even in broad day light

Anyway my 15 year old (step) brother goes to school down the street and he lives with his dad (not my dad) and I haven’t talked to him or his mom (my step-mom or exstep mom???) for a long time… He sometimes comes to visit this lil girl across the street from my house that goes to his school and I always miss him. I’ve been hoping I’d run into him so I could get his mom’s number (obviously his mom and my dad split up… lot of family drama)…

Well from afar I see 2 boys in what looks like school uniforms with bookbags on their backs walking towards me. Now I didn’t automatically assume this was my brother (I’m not THAT naive). One of the boys yells to me… something… not hello not even hey… So of course I ignore him… BUT he keeps calling out… Here is how the convo went…

Him: You can’t speak?

Me: (because now I think its my brother) OH well I didn’t know what you were saying. What are you doing walking the street anyway, aren’t you supposed to be in school? What’s your number I need to call your mother but I have to go.

Him: School?

Me: (Realizes its not my brother but still think he’s a lil boy who should be in school) Oh I thought you were someone else… You have a bookbag on like you should be in school… sorry (I called him a lil boy in there somewhere but I don’t remember)

Him: (trying to catch up with me to get closer) Lil boy? What makes you think I’m a lil boy. How old are you?

Me: Prolly older than you. I thought you were my brother. I’m sorry I have to go.

Him: Wait how old are you. Why you call me a lil boy? I’m 33.

Me: (trying to get away walking as fast as I can not looking back) I thought you were my brother… I’m 22.

Him: Well since you’re 22 can I call you?

Me: (Now horrified because he caught up to me and is like right next to me and his friend is calling him to leave me alone making me worry since he was worried) Absolutely not… bye

Thankfully I got to cross the street and get away from him and people were around… not like last weeks episode which I will not discuss

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