College


So I don’t really know where to begin… I’m apart of the group on campus called Lighthouse Campus Ministries and its great. Like being around college students talking about God, seeking after God, talking to GOD… yeah best thing ever… Sharing the gospel with those who don’t know Jesus… Love it! Its been really cool just to see what God has done through us this semester and its just been awesome… Well we have this weekly hour prayer room that I would go to faithfully cuz it was an awesome space to just connect with God outside of my normal prayer closet and just a great time of personal and communal prayer. Well I think it was like 2-3 weeks ago our campus leader and I were praying and we both heard the same thing about our work not being done even though the semester was winding down and to not let up… we were like ok LOL but little did we know what that meant @ the time… since then we did a big proxe station outreach event, a Christmas party, and a prayer room along with our normal prayer and weekly bible studies… I can just say personally for me I’ve connected with more people in these last 3 weeks than I did all semester long and I know alot of other people got connected to other people too and I think its just amazing and that’s why I just love campus ministry so much and know its what I’m called to…

So as most of you all know I’ve been looking for a job pretty much since I left York College in March… over the summer I got a job as a baby sitter but then my school schedule didn’t work for me to keep that job (which kinda sucked cuz it was great) and so I’ve been without income since like mid August (and yet provided for in ways beyond my imagining). I’ve had lots and lots of disappointments and discouragements and really just didn’t understand why I couldn’t get a job.. then even I was put on the list as a substitute aftercare teacher where I’d miss bible study if I were called and I never even once got called… but I recognized that getting a job would really take me away from a campus that I’m not on much away because I commute and would take away the relationship building opportunities.

So what does my title have to do with this and why am I saying all this??? Well… for one, my mom’s manager was going to do her a favor and hire me I just needed to pass this test and she’d hire me. I was banking on this job… already cashing my first paycheck and some more… The day after I took the test I went to a counseling session that my wonderful lovely great BFF kinda made me go to and my job hunt came up in the conversation and she suggested that I try to go for work study on campus again… at the time I brushed her off because I was like I just took this test and I already got a job, I’m getting called tomorrow… So I paid her no mind and didn’t listen to her… So yesterday we sponsored a 9-hour prayer room for the end of the semester and finals and I’m on campus all day in the prayer room 🙂 and I get a text from my mom saying that I had failed the test and I needed to take it again…. So of course I’m like devastated and confused because this test wasn’t hard… it wasn’t even your typical exam… I didn’t take the time to see in that what God was doing or hear what he was trying to say but I got prayer from our campus minister and she even said maybe God didn’t want me to work there… Its close to my house which was good… but that meant on public transportation I’d be 2 hours away from Bowie and unavailable alot of the time with school and work… (I know I take forever to get to the point sorry) I get more prayer that night during accountability with my BFF but I’m still not receiving anything like she said the same thing but I still didn’t have a peace about the situation and I now know it was just the enemy trying to distract me from hearing from God… and for a while there he did…. Today I stayed in a funk pretty much all day up until bible study prayer time where I was finally listening to God speak to me and tell me HIS plan… and calm my spirit… Before I went to bible study though I was talking to a friend who I didn’t tell the situation that happened or anything and she sent me a link for a job fair on Bowie’s campus to work @ Bowie through food services… at the time I was still in my lil funk so I was like they’re not going to hire me anyway and I don’t think they hire students so I’m not going to go… then yeah awesome prayer time… I get home and DUH!!!! It clicks and I finally open my eyes… I didn’t not get the job because I was inadequate (even though that’s something I knew before today LOL) I didn’t get it because I wasn’t supposed to, because God wants me at Bowie avaliable to cultivate relationships and do ministry…

I still have many things to tell you, but you can’t handle them now. But when the Friend comes, the Spirit of the Truth, he will take you by the hand and guide you into all the truth there is. He won’t draw attention to himself, but will make sense out of what is about to happen and, indeed, out of all that I have done and said. ~ John 16:12-14 (MSG)

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So I have a plan and I’m like extremely excited…

But first the JOURNEY… LOL

If you’ve known me for awhile you know college hasn’t really been my thing… I came to college because it was what was expected of me because I did well in high school and I wanted to get money to take care of my family. When I got to college I always said it should just be a social experience… 4 years of hanging out with people… no classes. I wasn’t really interested in anything really but I was good with computers so I picked the major of Information Systems Development. It didn’t take me long to realize that wasn’t what I wanted to do with the rest of my life. I mean while I spend every waking hour on the computer now, I didn’t like fixing problems or not knowing how to fix a problem (come across this alot) and the joy of being on the computer would be taken away because it was work. I also had begun growing spiritually in my faith and saw how I needed to follow Jesus with my whole life meaning career path as well. I never had asked God for direction in any area of my life like that before. So I asked… I think… LOL

So what I heard from God was to teach so that’s what I was going to do. Now I knew it was from God because all my life I’d been saying that I can’t teach so I didn’t make it up. So the plan was to change my major to Music Education because I love music (and play 4 instruments and sing) and God told me to teach plus I love children. Right? WRONG! LOL So after being convinced by someone who thought they were looking out for my best interests that I wouldn’t be able to get into the music program because my skill level wasn’t to the caliber needed I changed my major to just Elementary Education and was going to minor in Music. So getting into the Education program at my school was just as hard if not harder than getting into the Music program, especially since I was transferring into the program. BUT the only thing that was truly holding me back was my GPA which was a 2.97 and it needed to be a 3.0… So when I got to a point where I couldn’t take anymore classes except the ones in the Education program and I couldn’t get in because of my GPA I had to change my minor to Special Education just to be able to take classes and bring my GPA up. Needless to say that didn’t happen… in fact it went down to a 2.94 and I still wasn’t allowed in the program.

At this point (and many other points) I’m ready to just quit school. So I didn’t really seek God at that point about what I should do and I was in fact quite confused because I didn’t understand if he told me to teach why I couldn’t get into the program. (of course I know now :)) Anyway that was around the end of my junior year, so I began to look into any major that I could take that would have me to graduate in the least amount of time. The major would be Behavioral Science which is like the head of Sociology which seemed very interesting to me when I had to take Soc 100. So that’s what I did… my plan was to get out of school as soon as possible with any degree and just figure out my life after I graduated. Well needless to say THAT didn’t happen either. LOL

I had some big attacks of the enemy which led me to actually leave school in the middle of the semester and not return to that particular school. But the day I came home even I was being asked so what are you going to do? Where are you going to school? You need to register soon its around the time of deadlines. Which I guess was the voice of God in a way because I probably wouldn’t be in school right now had that not happened. BUT again I did not consult God and ask Him His plan and purpose for my life but jumped right into applying and registering for a school that made sense I would go to because it was cheap, it was close (and I thought it’d be easy to get there though found not the case), and it didn’t hurt that my mentor/ big sister worked there.

The only thing was it didn’t have my major so I had to change my major again… the most logical choice at the time was Sociology because it was the closest to my previous major. After being accepted and doing more research about the programs and things I decided I wanted to study children. So that’s what I signed up for. The only problem was there was this one class that was a prerequisite  for all of the following classes. Meaning I could only take that one class. I had a few more classes I could take because of the graduation requirements for the school but not enough to be full time so I just signed up for “fun” (courses I didn’t need but thought would be useful to me) classes to fill my schedule. On October 9th I have a break down and I’m just like I have no direction in my life I don’t know where God is taking me or why I’m even here or what I’m doing with my life… I feel like I’m going no where… I’m dropping out of school forever and moving out of my house and living with a friend!!! Yeah I was a mess… yeah I didn’t drop out of school… but I did drop down to part time and I did FINALLY seek God for direction and I waited for his direction and didn’t get it until December 4th.

I’m excited about it because before I never really had a Graduation Plan where I sat down and looked at everything I needed to do to graduate. But like I have this comprehensive list of everything that I’m going to take from now until I graduate in 2011. Oh yeah and I changed my major of course LOL… It is now Business Administration Management. I feel it is in line with what God wants me to do with my life even going into ministry because my vision is to open my own dance studio and that will be a business and I’ll definitely need to know how to operate it properly. Oh and if you’re wondering where the teaching comes in… I’ll be teaching dance classes @ my studio so I didn’t heard God incorrectly when He told me to teach… I just didn’t wait to hear the whole thing… So my graduation countdown has finally begun! Spring 2011 here I come! 🙂
Oh yeah did I mention that I’m ending this semester with  4.0 and because I transferred schools my old GPA is wiped clean??? I could write a whole blog about that one 🙂 but Wohoo!

Here’s my graduation plan just in case you’re interested 😉

Graduation Plan

Spring 2009

Introduction to Business

African-American History to 1865

Introduction to Principles of Reasoning

Life and Health

Technical & Report Writing I

Fall 2009

Principles of Marketing

Principles of Management

Principles of Accounting I

Principles of Macroeconomics

Principles of Microeconomics

Spring 2010

Principles of Accounting II

Business Law I

Money and Banking

Business/Economic Statistics I

Organizational Behavior

Principles of Supervision & Leadership

Fall 2010

Business Law II

Management Problems

Principles of Finance

Human Resource Management

Spring 2011

Quantitative Methods in Decision Making

Entrepreneurship & New Enterprises

Business Strategy and Policy

Production and Operation Management